Monday, October 6, 2008
Friday, March 28, 2008
Alone again.
On the outside at least. The baby in my belly is getting quite big... just over two months to go. I am trying to be very grown up about my choice of mate... (who has now decided to leave in search of new girls to impregnate)... and didnt even want to know about how this sacred life was going.
HE made it easy for me in the end. Turning away. offering no touch. I probably would have continued to suffer the philandering... if only he had remained affectionate towards me.
Oh well! must move along lifes highway. It saddens me not to be sharing this.... Im 41 years old. I wont be doing it again. Anyway...
On the outside at least. The baby in my belly is getting quite big... just over two months to go. I am trying to be very grown up about my choice of mate... (who has now decided to leave in search of new girls to impregnate)... and didnt even want to know about how this sacred life was going.
HE made it easy for me in the end. Turning away. offering no touch. I probably would have continued to suffer the philandering... if only he had remained affectionate towards me.
Oh well! must move along lifes highway. It saddens me not to be sharing this.... Im 41 years old. I wont be doing it again. Anyway...
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Monday, December 31, 2007
new years day
I am making a new beginning. Stepping back from the self depreciation and disablement that goes with handing ones power over. This year, whilst I aim with strongest intent to go-w-t-flow; I also must embrace truth, reality. I am "captain of my soul".
yes its all wonderful to become emblazoned with the passions of the moment; (im learning about myself), yet to keep a constant course over time must also be my goal. For now, while I have tender time to muse, whilst preparing for my baby to arrive in six months; I will take advantage of the luxury, as I know that a very different life will follow.
Courage and integrity. Courage to be alone, courage to be silent. Integrity to be grateful, and integrity to be quiet.
yes its all wonderful to become emblazoned with the passions of the moment; (im learning about myself), yet to keep a constant course over time must also be my goal. For now, while I have tender time to muse, whilst preparing for my baby to arrive in six months; I will take advantage of the luxury, as I know that a very different life will follow.
Courage and integrity. Courage to be alone, courage to be silent. Integrity to be grateful, and integrity to be quiet.
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